明儿的部落格::minG-eR's bloG

i ve been lost!

2008-10-20T00:37:00.002+08:00

oh my....looking at my last post date, it has been 2 mths plus since the last i left something here. somehow...so much things have happened recently in my life...how do i put them all down?
i am busy with so much things...if u knw, u will be happie for me too...
but im tired from all the things happening...wat to do?

roller coaster weight problem...HELP! !!

2008-07-30T00:02:00.002+08:00

dear pp...kindly advise me wat i can do...my weight is fluctuating...like the stocks! and worst thing in common is tt they are totally uncontrollable! pp losing their money, im losing patience wif myself! when can i slim back? when so i start bloating like a hot air balloon again? SHUCKS!!!

please kindly drop off ur tips for me at the comments counter n if it is reali useful....there wil be a nice present for the advisor...haha

guess wat? my KISS!!wahaha......jus kidding.

trainees n me

2008-07-27T00:31:00.002+08:00

seen alot of coming n going these few weeks. i haf trainees who join n trainees who leave after completion of their training attachment. somehow....quite hard to believ that time past so fast n these are the trainees who grow together wif me throughout the 1st few mths tt i take on this career...wish them all the best in watever they do....good luck, u guys!

are u in a struggle? wahaha

2008-07-20T21:07:00.002+08:00

spent another family day again...of cos with my parents...we had a gd time eating durians! wow....so gd durians at so so so cheap price! guess wat, i have a joke to share...
i asked my mum abt y she accepted my dad when he proposed to her...this was wat she said,
"Well..i struggled for a very long time" ("我挣扎了很久。。。")
den, guess wat my dad said?
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here goes...."i struggled for 30 yrs..." ("我挣扎了三十年")
。。。。。。。。。
。。。。。。。。。LONGPIA !!!

hahahaha...isnt it so funny?
well...gd bedtime joke for all....

pics at cafe del moar n after

2008-07-15T00:32:00.002+08:00

well,here are the pics taken at cafe del moar...hm...so red...n so sleepy. thankful ive got gd ethics even after drinkinng....quite a bit..haha...nvr scream n shout n throw up,but jus like to sleep.

hw abt u???

JuLy...

2008-07-08T00:56:00.003+08:00

july...3rd is patrick's bday, 4th is the special day when i receive the nice ring...a day to remember n note down in case i forget! (how can i ?!)

sentosa is getting boring for us but i guess it has become special forever after the 4th. its the happenings tt makes the island special. nt reali the place itself. oops! im sorry...to the islanders who r in sentosa almost every week. jus tt i haf finished walking thru the whole place and been to the beaches.

siloso beach resort is not so wonderful after all....well, mayb my own opinions.but definitely can try to make the resort better to match up to the competitors on the island. especially new ones like amara sanctuary. though expensiv, u can expect the rooms to be of a certain standard.rooms are much bigger too. with bath tub. siloso doesnt haf...

room was nicely decorated wif flowers (special arrangement though) with words of petals....romantic ah? dinner was a good treat..to Cafe Del Moar spent more than 200 dollars...Cabernet Sauvignon...good wine. love it....we had a 'hut' to sit in n talk. nice hut...nearly fell asleep there..shld say already fell asleep there. nice lights which are dim made me sleepy...like now...haha..nitez

**we went for the fish reflexology too! the fishes from Africa are fierce....waargh!!! heehee ;p

KL trip

2008-06-27T23:38:00.003+08:00

guys...i went to KL to do some visiting n of cos to relax a little last wk...real tight schedule in the end. not relaxed at all....throughout the journey was fun though...lotsa laughter n jokes n definitely can see the distance between family n him nt s far already. **thankful**

some pics above ...my favourite cousin....n his family photo which i took for them..god photographer? of cos....heehee

last but nt least....my 2 chicky chicks!!!

somebody ask me to write this!

2008-06-02T23:46:00.002+08:00

dear frens....

wat i m gg to write is nt somethin tt i tot i want to write, but as requested by some one else....

my family celebrated my grandpa's bday in March and we took so many pics. i was very "high" tt day and got some activities gg on like every1 to kiss ah gong one by one...it got ah gong so touched tt his eyes were filled wif tears. i took on the responsibility to develop the pics and put them into an album, completed wif dried flowers n words n names of every1 in the pics for ah gong to read and so tt he wont forget our names as he is growing older....

i had passed the album to him about 3-4 weeks back n i heard from my mum tt whichever relative saw the album was very happy and tot that the album was done very nicely and it is definitely somethin very meaningful for ah gong as his children are all over the world and it's nt everyday tt he can get to see them.

but guess wat? my dear aunt's kids came over to ah gong's place to stayover for a few nites n the elder son, ard pri 2 or 3, saw the album n tore most of the pages up! he also drew on the front n back pages! worst thing, he cut up some of the pics in the album! he is supposed to be a very smart boy, knowing many words at such young age n he can speak eng, malay, chinese! but he did such a DEED to my album? wat do you tink he said when they saw him doing tt abt 15 min later? he said he didnt like it becos his english name wasnt in the album n i had onli written his chinese name! wat the FXXX! jus bcos i didnt write his eng name he tore up the plastic sheets to cover the pics, cut up n drew all over?

well, guess wat i did when i saw it 1st thing in the morning on sunday? (well, my mum brought it back on saturday but i didnt see it) guess........i CRIED...cried so badly like a kid. goodness, i didnt knw wat to do...wat can i do? call him n scold the hell out of him? my um tried to tell me tt his mum, my aunt scolded him terribly n beat him up wif clothes hanger...ouch!.... but so wat? my album is dead already...i put in my heart when doing the album. though it is nt the most beautiful album, it is one tt is made of love....and i m the onli one doing it. yet i get this kind of "retribution".....in the nite when i was toking to my dear fren, i cried again.....like a kid...AGAIN.

anywayz....i told my aunts nt to tell my ah gong wat happened in case he gets upset n told him tt i brought the album back to fill in more pics....nw, double job again...im nt lazy or wat...but jus sad....y is it me? the album is meant to b for wonderful memories, but my dear cousin jus had to do some justice to it....n he nver apologise to me.

im petty? YES! who wouldnt?

me? a teacher?

2008-05-25T00:33:00.002+08:00

yes, im a teacher. the occupation tt i tot will cease to be used on me after all the PT tuitioning tt i haf done for primary school kids after my studying time....but 人算不如天算...haiz....here i am, doing training in the hotel, & adding on to tt, im now, nt only a teacher to a group of juniors, but even seniors! hw abt tt?

well, like wat i told the class, maybe this flows in the blood.my dad has alwas been supervising others, my sis is a teacher & finali i cant escape being a teacher/trainer in the end...hahahah.....

in addition to this, pls prepare urselves for another round of shock from me....my classes r conducted all in Mandarin!i haf to make myself very clear in Mandarin, write in chinese so tt all my students undertand....haha .how unbelievable...well, u haf to! here are some pics as evidence oh!

ktv wif jason & jiejie

2008-05-18T15:32:00.003+08:00

haha....this is the ktv session i had wif jason, patrick's best buddy & my jiejie lo....use our knee to guess also knnw wat im tryng to do right'?wahaha....

ktv in the hotel

2008-05-18T15:27:00.002+08:00

woa...looking back, it has been so long since the last i post some pics....many things happened, very bz lately....but finally find the time to sit down n post some pics n some thoughts....

well, the hotel organised a ktv session sometime last month...here are some nice pics.

happy Anniversary!

2008-05-06T23:26:00.003+08:00

happy anniversary! so happie....we have come to celebrate our anniversary! time past so fast! we have been together to be able to qualify the anniversary round....i truly hope we can survive the decade & even few decades...

o my love....it seems so fast, but yet we hav done so much in the past yr. we have gone on 5 trips together! short or long trips, we haf reali enjoyed ourselves. though we do nt haf much time from start of 2008, we are looking forward to one real soon rite? it seemed so long that i've been in love wif u & we haf been together. the times i spent wif u are happiest, loveliest & of cos, bab-iest! haha...as i said b4, there;s nothing for me to worry abt or even to think abt! u re alwas there to shield me from sun, rain & even the wind.

thank you for being wif me, for loving me, for staying wif me thru everything.

thank you for letting me love u & letting me irritate u & making u happie.

thank you for making me feel like the one n onli pampered princess on earth.

may our days to come happier than ever, may our love be ever lasting, may our hearts come together n stay together.

lastly,

i love u, darling....

happy anniversary.

向我亲爱的桌灯致敬!!

2008-05-01T23:47:00.001+08:00

看了看标题就该猜到我会写些不正经的东西。。。别误会，不是写R21的，是写PG 的。。。哈哈。。。

亲爱的桌灯它今年几岁了？坦白说，我真的不知道。我能记得的是它为我们家的很多人“默默地”付出了很久。。。从舅舅、阿姨年轻时，考试的时候，它就已经开始不眠不休地为他们提供“夜里的一道光”。。。在很多年后，他们都到社会工作，我们伟大的桌灯还是没有离开它的工作岗位，让舅舅、阿姨们能够赶夜车，隔天交上报告。很可惜，在公公搬家的时候，却没有人想要把这把桌灯一起带走。是嫌它的外壳老旧了吧？但是大家都忽略了它的贡献。。。很庆幸的是，把桌灯捡回家的，就是我家的“娘娘”，一个跟这桌灯一点“交情”都没有的人。哈哈。。。很好笑吧？她拿回家来的原因很简单，就是因为我和姐姐晚上温习功课需要，所以咯。。。数一数，桌灯跟这我们已经。。。不知道多少个光阴了。。。哈哈。。我真的忘了。。。不管我们从小到大怎么对它又折又推地，它还是尽工职守地“发光发热”。。。

所以，今天就让我在这里向我亲爱的桌灯致敬，我好爱你呀! 你就继续为我们效劳吧!

unsure???

2008-04-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

many a times when some things are getting on jus too well for u, u might worry tt something might be wrong somewher but u jus cant figure out wat is wrong...
it is like piecing a 1000-piece jigsaw puzzle and getting 10 pieces in place one right after the other without much thought n matching. hw high is the posibility of one doing tt right? well, i think the possibility is almost 0. unless this person has been piecing the same jigsaw puzzle for more than 10 times. hwever, can we do this in real life? for a start, i dont think i would wan to haf 10 bf b4 being able to find a husband...i mean I wont...(but u would?!) ahaha.....well....who knws. but for me, i dont haf tt amt of time to spare.
the worst thing is when u start piecing the jigsaw puzzle for the center and after piecing abt 5 rounds around the center piece, u start to worry n think tt the center piece tt started off the whole puzzle might be wrong.! wat can u do? do nt think much abt it but continue wif the puzzle and facing chances tt everything could b wrong? stop and re-start the whole puzzle? but, can u afford to do so? can u bear to do so? do u have the guts? or do u even haf the time to start all over again? i dont knw....
piecing a jigsaw puzzle is jus somethin we can do every other day. put in to practise in life....can we? when can i get my puzzle up successfully and keep it in place nicely for the rest of my life?

Singapore Flyer!

2008-04-15T22:40:00.005+08:00

went on the spore flyer on 12th this mth...quite nice experience. esp this is the 1st time going out with a big grp from the hotel...sounds like school time excursion? yes,it sure is....haha...but this time i see pp bringing their kids instead of parents coming along... ;p

view from the top is reali much better than tt from the calsberg sky tower. and the sky is clear though it rained in the morning, causing us to go have the high tea 1st den to the flyer....well...stil enjoyed the experience though....here are some pics taken wif the other women from the dept. we reali like to pose...somehow, i remember. . . "birds of the same feather flock together.." heeehee....

thanx ying

2008-04-09T23:28:00.002+08:00

this is a post jus solely to thank one person who is very impt in my life....guess who? its ying....oh my, she is so loveable. im nt lesbian....heehee....can u imagine, 1 call n she had to come down to orchard after her course in the afternoon, which she had class in the morning n she came rushing down! this is no big deal? well...read on.

ying had to finish some very impt work due today but yet she came down to meet me!!! gooodnessssssss..........im so BLOODY touched! thanx woman...i reali glad u came down today. i wont hav been able to sort out my thinking without u.

love u so much ah!

others, pls don get angry y i nvr cal u guys ok!cos ying previously had 'troubled' me b4...so nw,its her pay-back time!!eeheeee.....jus joking la....

best scenario...

2008-04-05T00:06:00.002+08:00

someone said this sentence which i quite disagree today..."everytime when i go out with my frens, my bf dont come wif me n when he's out wif his, i dont tag along. give him privacy n freedom"

well, not in the sense tt i tink my partner doesnt need freedom, but i tink of the situation in another way...to me, i would be very happy if my partner is able to come out n meet my frens, know my frens, get along wif my frens so tt even when we come out, both of us are enjoying ourselves n we do not nid to worry abt gg back as soon as we can so tt anyone of us wouldnt be kept waiting a home for the other. if we can go out mit frens n stil enjoy our partners' company, tt would be the best!

i feel very lucky now as they can all get along fine n well...reali appreciate wat he did n wat he always does. love ya.....uncle seet...hahaha....

我们的三百六十五天

2008-04-01T23:56:00.002+08:00

谢谢让我认识你。。。

我从新体会什么是快乐、幸福，重拾信心。

即使有争吵，也比不上没认识你之前的痛。

有你在，我变成了柔弱的婴儿，备受呵护、疼爱有加。无忧无虑的过着每一天。。。无需担心很多琐事，我快乐许多。身边的人无一不发现我的改变，替我高兴。

有你在，我可以专心做我想要做的，享受一切的过程，不被其他的问题干扰。你让我看到世界的不同，体验里面的种种。

谢谢你，我的爱。。。我们的三百六十五天里，谢谢你爱我，让我的世界特别的美丽、精彩。

the ideaL man?

2008-03-07T00:37:00.004+08:00

wats ur ideal man? i mean the one whom u tink u can love and live with for the rest of ur life?

must he be
- caring?
- loving?
- works hard?
- knows wat he wants to achieve in life?
- tries his best to meet u everyday though he might be very bz?
- send u home everyday?
- buys u flowers?
- thinks for u even b4 u can think abt urself?
- be there for u to display ur possessiv abilities & skills?
- lets u scold him & throw tantrums @ him on ur worst days at work?
- though he might pamper u, he stil makes sure u knw it when u r in the
wrong....but onli after u hav calmed down?
- rush off work to fetch u from ur expensiv & sumptous dinner with his empty stomach and send u home straight away?
- makes sure u don dirty ur hands but peel prawns for u everytime & dirty his own hands instead?
- when u do something every1 will say its stupid but he wil smile at u and say, "my dear, u are so cute..."

well..........................................i tink i have found mine.

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2008-03-04T23:49:00.002+08:00

received a letter from a fren recently. many things are wat he wrote to me the previous time. when i take the 2 letters to compare, i can see the obvious similarities.makes me feel tt this fren belongs to the type of person tt its onli when he is in a bad situation will he regret wat he has done and start to tink of the good times he had. y are pp like tt?
"y did i not do this n not do that"....this is a sentence tt repeated itself for quite many times. sigh...makes me feel weak when reading the letter. weak cos i feel tt pp do not think much when making decisions... n regrets alwas set in. me too...only when i regret wil i learn from my mistake.

6 meet again!

2008-02-22T19:32:00.006+08:00

remember this line "let the power combine....power rangers!!!" haha.....the 6 of us finally get to meet again! that is so so nice. really happie.cos we are all celebrating CNY together too. hope you guys reali enjoyed urselves. for those who went back earlier, we went to MezeBar after food at crystal jade. the bar is in Mandarin hotel and we had a range of drinks before going back. though not reali so-called fun, but i think it is good enough that we get to see each other. we had a guest this time, andrea. and andrea is so cute.haha...but thanks andrea for the gift, i love it.thanks again. mr seet was there too... hope we can meet up again or like wat we said, we are going on a trip together! definitely! guys, we are thinking about May. can? leave me a message...

Youth Olympic Games - Singapore 2010

2008-02-21T23:19:00.003+08:00

yeah!!!!! i am so so happie tt Singapore got the bid for the host city!!! Youth Olympic Games is coming!!! very excited & happy tt i was part of the grp at padang waiting with the other thousand of pp for the announcement of the results. i had a reali great time. the only thing & something which i thought was very important but was left out was my beloved camera! stupid me...but luckily my hp stil could take some decent pics.hee hee...share wif u guys oh...enjoy...

好想好想她

2008-02-13T23:54:00.003+08:00

突然好想好想她

她的温柔

她的爱护

她的支持

她的坚强

特别在不开心的时候

更加地凸现出自己的凄凉

她无法帮我解决问题

可是她能从旁安慰

她无法帮我伤心难过

可是她能陪我哭泣

她无法帮我做下决定

可是她能给予支持

她的离去

我像失去一切

像没人要的孩子

慌忙的寻找着能让他依赖的肩膀

可是有谁又能和她一样呢。。。

CNY photo taking

2008-02-10T01:04:00.000+08:00

this Chinese New Yr i wasnt in Singapore, i mean for the 1st 2days...strictly speaking, its 1st 1n half days...well, spent my days in KL, wif my granny..dad's mummy....so long nvr go back to KL for CNY, so she was so so so happie this yr to see us go back in 1 big family. we had a real fun time this yr taking pics for the 1st day right outside our shophouse. this is 1st time ever we had photo taking of such a big scale. guess how many pics i took? 100++ pics!!! gosh! but we were all so happie taking all the pics.esp the ones wif granny.she jus had to sit there n we wil form different grps to take pics wif her. be it 1 family after the other, one generation after the other, all guys den all ladies, all married den all un-married...granny told me she enjoyed this yr most cos of many activities. n most importantly, the photo-taking cos we are all sround. she can develop the pics n keep wif her to see them everyday.

i feel so proud being the one to bring on this "exercise" wif my camera. i reali hope we can continue this "tradition" every yr n we can see the difference in 1 another everytime. it also makes us grow closer as we laugh n joke while taking the pics.

well, share some of them here....don laugh too much k!

happy new yr, may all ur wishes come true.....

1st dnr for mr seet & my family

2008-02-03T22:43:00.000+08:00

haha....dear frens, u guys who can make fun of mr seet, pls go ahead! haha...finally, he was given the chance to mit up my parents!wahaha....so funnie. but he is quite ok.not reali nervous leh. this i have to salute him. well, he got good feedback too....so, good for u la, mr seet! attached above is the pic he took for my family...once in a million years! so long we have not taken pic for the whole family,thanks to mr seet n this dinner. deeply appreciate. thanks so much. & chinatown reali looks so nice in the night during this period.especially this CNY period. so many beautiful lanterns....

ooohhhh...this woman! i love her so!

2008-01-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

dear pp...this is one woman whom i love so much....reali the best boss around...ooops...hope my new boss dont see this. but we have to agree she is a good boss, fantastic teacher, mentor, advisor...& she is evertyhing u hope she can be. but easily misunderstood s fierce cos she is reali BIG! remember the cute feet in my earlier posts? haha....those are hers!!this pic is taken at this year's D&D.she is so cute!

Chinese New Year!!!

2008-01-27T00:28:00.000+08:00

hey all, chinese new year is jus round the corner...jus wanna wish every1 reading this a very happie CNY & may this yr be a big fat prosperous yr for all u pp!!!

时间真的能够冲淡一切？

2008-01-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

时间真的能够冲淡很多事，但绝对无法冲淡一切。

对妈妈的思念虽然没有像刚开始那么的强烈，可却也少不到哪里去。常常都会因一切琐事而联想起她，看电影里的情节只要是接近一些和妈妈过往的事便会不知不觉地沉浸在自己的世界里，还浪费了戏票的钱。。。有些时候还忍不住掉眼泪呢。。。哈哈！

做梦的时候甚至还梦到妈妈活了下来，开开心心的过生活。梦醒之后还想永远都待在梦里不出来，要是妈妈还在有多好啊！每天都这样的想着。可那时绝对不可能发生的事，就像大人们跟小孩说的：“妈妈去了非常远的地方，没办法回来了。” 唉。。。

有些时候还会想起旧人。旧人-很久以前就认识的人们。。。脸上没有表情，但却感到心情大大的浮动。想起的人绝非只有淡淡的交情，所以才会让我的脑筋停下来，回味一下和那些人的过去。

即使在街上认出了他们，却也不会走上前打招呼。为什么？我不知道。。。

wats my purpose?

2008-01-15T00:25:00.000+08:00

wah...i think it has been sometime since the last i wrote something decent.haha....

jus last week, this guy, called Nick, born without limbs, came to my hotel to give a talk...i wont bore u guys wif wat he said, but as u guys might hav guessed, its something tt shld be encouraging and things like tt.

seriously, i wasn't so into wat he was talking abt, which is called "finding our passion n purpose in life"...y m i not reali into it maybe its cos im not at the "low" of my life, so i was more interested in hw he overcame all odds to become such an optimistic person now.

purpose...wats my purpose then? i guess, its to come to this world, to experience life, to help make pp aound me wat they r today n get help from others to make wat i m today. im of cos grateful, but at the same time puzzled. m i tt powerful to b able to affect others? haha....ya,maybe those who care abt me...

dream

2008-01-05T22:20:00.000+08:00

haha...guess wat,i had a very "scary" dream last night. strictly speaking, cant say its last night,shld b this morning...hahaha

wat i dreamt of was a very dark place, cos its at night, n at 1st the place was alright, wif many pp walkin around. after awhile, the person who went there wif me (i dunno who) went somewher else n i walked around myself, suddenly many alligators/crocodiles somehow appeared!!! they looked so scary....but 1 thing abt them was that they look so lazy....not moving around alot, but i was scared stiff! i quickly went around to find pp whom i knw n on the way, i talked to a stall owner selling alligator heads n she told me not to b worried cos they don bite! haha....it was then i realised they onli lie there n move little but they don bite..haha...she even showed me tt they have onli very short n blunt teeth.the ones which can bite are all dead wif heads hanging high....yeee...yucks!

wat a stupid dream....but funnie after tt when i think abt it....haiz....heehee

new work, work, & more work...

2008-01-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

as some of u guys might knw, i've gotten myself a transfer to anotehr dept.,n im now in the training dept.its almost like gg back home, gg back to where i was back 1yr ago. dunno whether it's a right choice to be back, but part of me is lookng forward to the new challenges ahead, n the other part of me is worried alot abt my future here.

well.think this is wat most pp wil feel when they go to a new environment...so,pray for me k! new place wif alot of work...cos alot of "bad debts"....haiz...don elaborate any further or u pp wil be bored to death by my super long essay...heehee...jus wish me luck!

love, ming-er

going away from the current workplace...

2007-12-26T00:32:00.001+08:00

well,even though away from where im working now, stil im in the hotel,but different department, different jobscope & very different way of working too...i got to knw my transfer has been approved onli today n tt i wil be starting my new position in training dept in the hotel on 2nd jan. wa...reali a surprise.but i tink its a gd surprise as i hav been hopin to go over there earlier to pick up watever i hav left behind 1yr ago...

anyway, i was quite lucky i brought my camera along cos i realise i don hav tt much time left here to take pics wif all colleagues i hav been working wif for the past yr.esp. those who reali took care of me, like alice tay n more. but she is one whom showered me wif care n concern,more than wat a normall colleague would.i don nid to get my own breakfast cos i knw she'll get for me.n she don get any money back from me! everyday!!! no fail.

got to take some pics wif some today ,....some nice pics too....

merry x'mas !!!

2007-12-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

i like x'mas....cos every1 gets so excited...haha...im a psychopath..jus like seeing pp's emotion changes..heehee....anyway...we don get to see snow here,so i m reali lookin forward to go somewher i can see snow next year.wish granted? it depends very much on our mr seet oh...wahahah.... ;p

congrats to yuchan....happy marriage!

2007-12-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

had a fren called yuchan, actually she's my sis's very very gd fren. n i knew her from sec sch days so we are quite ok terms.she's very nice to me all the way too, so we r sort of frens too....anyway she got married on 20th dec.,n i was the emcee on her wedding night dinner. it was my 1s time emcee-ing a wedding dinner.lucky i didnt make a joke out of it.heehee....so proud to seee her get married...sudden urge to tie the knot? hm...not so soon la.maybe few yrs later or sth.wahaha.... ;p

jus let u guys see some real nice pics.enjoy!

孩子的样貌

2007-12-18T00:26:00.000+08:00

最近和同事聊天，她拿出女儿的照片，很骄傲的让我看。他的女儿真的很可爱，很讨人喜欢。看着看着，我就说了一句，“你生了那么漂亮的孩子，我都不知道我以后生的孩子会不会一样也是所谓的‘优良品种’呢？”

他看了我一眼就说，“你那么漂亮，孩子一定不差，甚至会得到更好的呢！”过了短短的20秒之后，他说了一句让我感到非常非常震撼的话：“还有，要是夫妻很相爱，即使他们的样子平凡，他们的孩子也会特别的漂亮、出色。”

他说的这番话让我沉思了好久好久。。。两个很相爱的人生的孩子会很出色。。。这话我会认同，也会相信。。。你呢？

granny came to visit...

2007-12-15T23:33:00.001+08:00

granny's visit this time lasted onli 6 days.5days to be exact la,together wif my little cousin.she is healthier than i expected her to be. she told me herself she's turning 85 soon...but i tink she is stil very healthy for her age.she can stil walk around without the help of pp or canes or sticks.she can stil find her way in the dark at night! haha....happie tt she is stil gg on strong.but somehow feels tt she doesnt hav alot of pp to listen to her.she made full use of my time whenever im around to get me to chat wif her n she wil update me on the latest news of all my uncles,aunties, cousins...etc.so her visit wasnt so bored for her...heehee.she got to gossip! i guess when pp grow old,they tend to get younger in their thinking n actions.i don reali mind her this "not so gd" point,cos she get me updated...wahaha....shes my spy leh!no la...enjoy talkin n listening to her though. this yr chinese new yr sure cant escape le.hav to go back to K.L ...haiz....how? wat can i do? wat can i say? she told me shes 85....but...gg to K.L is reali boring for new yr...help!!!

before ~ after....wahahah....

2007-12-13T00:08:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness.....dear frens...this is a chance for u guys to be laughin, rollin on the floor, do watever u like...cos im puttin up my worst pics online....can u all imagine this was me 1yr ago?(the pic on the top) exactly 1 yr back! n the other on the bottom pic was taken jus 1mth back. see the before n after effects? i reali cant imagine tt was hw "good" i looked !hehee....well,mayb like wat most pp say...its the love tt i get tt provides the "nourishment" i need! heehee.....;p

when female species get bored....part 2

2007-12-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

dear frens...i knw wat u guys r gg to say...haha....yeah...im getting bored again.wat can i do? cos mr seet is too bz wif other things.... haiz....like the pics?

pics taken on dec 9th for celebration for ying2

2007-12-12T23:50:00.001+08:00

these r the pics taken at k-box where we celebrated wif ying her bday...hm....though stil n alwas at kbox, we enjoyed ourselves cos we got feng there to sing the guys part for duets...haha...m i rite,ying?heehee....glad ying enjoyed herself...we wil hav more of this in the future.

actuali, i love the tazmania myself too...so cute right? ;p

happie bday to ying2 !!!

2007-12-10T01:09:00.000+08:00

this is to my dearest fren,someone who has alwas been by myside,(this is wat she might say too abt me..wahaha...) happie bday! this is your 2Xth bday, hope ur wishes come true. glad u enjoyed urself jus now...heehee we went singing,again! wif feng cos others cant make it :X
aniwae, may ur wishes come true n hope ur prince charming can come fast to mr seet's rescue ....u knw y? haaha....he thinks u r too bad an influence le la...heehe...
well,for those who wont at the ktv session jus now, this is a very classic something tt got me laughin so long from the bday girl... i was singing this song with these 2words “忐忑” n ying asked me isnt these 2 words pronounced as "wai xie" (歪斜）hahahahaha....tell uu all, this is the best joke!reali , for so long,n thanks to our bday ger...haha....
these type of 丑事 must share the joy wif all...heehee....see hw cute my best fren is!

hw do u knw whether u love a person?

2007-12-10T00:11:00.000+08:00

hw do we knw whether we love a person? well, ask our hearts? sometimes, i find tt we r not tt sincere or truthful, even to ourselves. maybe its the asian culture for some,maybe its tradition, maybe its watever barrier tt's standing in the way,but for me, i knw by watching myself. my reactions to things/matters/emotions as long as they r concerning tt particular person.

though i hav my him already,i stil check on myself from time to time...hhaha....i also don knw y,so pls don ask me something tts too deep...i cant answer u.

last wk, he got a log cake for my family.ordered from the hotel, so it costs quite a sum,for a small cake.furthermore,its christmas season,sure super duper expensive.i was taking the train back after work,wif tons n tons of pp, dunno wher they al come from....n i had the cake on my hand.i had to shun all the moving legs n hands n "flying" bags being shoved abt,so tt i can keep the cake intact til i reach home.n whoever comes near,i wil giv the "keep out!" look...well , wats so big deal abt a cake?its stil to be eaten n eventualli come out from u knw where...but i stil kept on watching like a serpent for prey...i look, i stare,i glare n i practically hugged the cake til home.

jus a cake from him n this is how i treasure the cake...this shows myself,hw impt he is to me,tt wat he gives me,is impt.

hw do u measure for urself?

i love my dear dear sis....

2007-12-03T00:50:00.000+08:00

this is a pic taken of my dear sis n i so long ago....last yr september...at genting highlands wif my family. i so fat right?haha

i love my dear dear sis...cos she is crazy,cos she is small size,cos she is capable, she she is smart, cos she has got bad temper, cos she screams at me everytime,cos she's alwas frustrated wif me, cos she alwas mearly kill me wif her punches...

wat can i say? though its more frequently tt we quarrel nowadays...maybe same as when we were younger,i stil love my bloody sis....we share the worst of days when we were young, hugging n crying to slp, when we get beatings, which was so frequent(during childhood days), she would alwas shield me n me alwas shield her.( though in the end we alwas get more than we were supposed to get...argh~!) i remember once i crossed the road without watching out n the van luckily stopped in time, she was so shocked tt i could see her shake.

fun times when i see the guy in pri sch who likes her cry in sch carpark cos she liked another guy.till today, i can stil remember the guy sitting down crying...wahaha....we going to buy the clams n boil to eat ourselves....2kg! n we finished all of them....when sis was in university hostel,i would travel all the way in to look for her when i miss her but i nvr tell her i miss her.onli say cos i hav nothing to do n nowhere to go.when im there, i wil jus use her computer but enjoy the conversations we hav n listen to her complain abt pp or stuffs. she wil keep feeeding me wif the food stuffs she stock up in the room...

when we lost our dearest mama, the 2 of us stayed up during the wake n keeping each other awake playing cards, taking turns to make sure the joss sticks keep burning n be there for each other. she then "played" mama, lookin after me n nagging at me now....though quite irritating at times.

jie jie likes to slp with the fan on at lowest, i love it at highest. she eats healthily, i eat totally un--------healthily.she goes for regular slping hrs, i slp at dunno wat time. she is a teacheer, im a hotelier.we are totally different. we totally clash.....

but stil..... i love my jie jie, no matter hw many times we disagree, no matter hw many times we fight. though she might not even get to read this, i stil must say, i love u, jie jie

sentosa again!!! 26& 27 nov

2007-11-28T01:04:00.000+08:00

haha....i went sentosa again! but this time i went to stay in the new Amara Sanctuary Resort n there is onli 1 word i can use to describe the hotel. excellent! excellent room especially...n the swimming pool, the location is ok...the service is good, n the rate is good...not too ex.but reasonable. this time to sentosa i spent lots of time exploring the area ard imbiah station n going up carlsberg skytower where i get magnificent view of the city n even the seas out there.the luge n skyride is so so fun! mayb next time shld go few more rounds...the cineblast n 4D shows there reali live up to its name but of cos can do better! i even played in the small pools if water at the imbiah lookout n had so much fun like when i was younger....reali enjoyed myself this time.any1 interested to knw more abt the hotel, do let me knw,i'll email the pics of the room n hotel for u to check out the place! cheers!!!

zoo wif papa

2007-11-28T00:55:00.000+08:00

had a wonderful day wif papa, jie n pat tt day....yrs since the last i went to the zoo..for goodness sake!wahaha.... but we all had fun.pa enjoyed himself...though he got tired . we went for dinner at crystal jade...heehee...had such sumptous meal.n we chat abt times when me n jie were so young n pa's heroic deeds...can u imagine my pa had killed a snake alone wif a stick? i saw it when i was young wif my own eyes n i cant nvr forget the time early in the morning when he showed us the dead snake which later he gave to the neighbour malays to brew soup...argh! yucky....

ERP on CTE...what the f**k are singaporeans thinking !!!

2007-11-23T01:04:00.000+08:00

hi everyone,
im sure alot of u guys know tt nowadays from 5.30-10.30pm onwards, there will be ERP charges for users of CTE right? guess what, below is what i experience once they start to charge ERP in the evenings on this expressway.....
from a colleague who uses CTE around 5-530pm, she says that it wil be super packed everyday, for pp who r trying to rush to go thru b4 it starts charging. however, after 530pm, it wil be smoother traffic. but when it comes to 10pm, once u get into the tunnel from orchard cairnhill, this is what i observed --
cars will be travelling at a very super slow speed towards the ERP gate (or whatever u call it) even though it is still like 30min away from the stated time.den once u cross the gate where the charges are imposed, u can feel an extreme difference in the speed of the cars. they go so much faster than the way the "turtled" themselves to the gate! for goodness sake! what the hell are these pp thinking? do u tink from cairnhill to the ERP gate u can try to wriggle thru using a damn 30 min? i mean, what the hell! one can drive thru at the regular speed to the gate in 5min! but these pp, knowing tt iin the end they wil stil hav to pay for the few dollars, they stil wan to take their own sweet time trying to fight for the last few min they could! 垂死挣扎？oh my goodness...there the gate is right in front showing 1020pm n yet u can see drivers still doing their last bit in saving their money n slowing down, causing a jam! these pp are reali.....i cant find the best description better than this, "sooooooo Singaporean!"
n after they finally hav to pay for the charge, they wil drive so much faster! what is going thru their minds? haha....makes me laugh.
pls, pp, if u guys wanna save tt few bucks, at least wait for awhile longer b4 u start driving to the expressway instead of hindering the other road users who don mind spending the money n reaching home earlier...by slowing down when reaching the gate is also a very idiotic move!
haha....feel so much better after putting these words down....hahaha.... ;p

christmas is ard the corner!

2007-11-22T01:55:00.000+08:00

dear all...me n ying went to taka yesterday n took pics with the christmas tree there.the tree is nice...we toook quite a few pics but didnt took for too long cos we paiseh ma...wahaha...so who is coming with us for the christmas lightings viewing n we go to the observation lounge or mezeBar for drinks again?

feel like singing...jingle bells jingle bells..jingle all the way...

oh wat fun it is to ride in a one horse open sleigh.....

papa

2007-11-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

went to zoo with my "papa" yesterday on my off day...sure u guys which papa im referring to, right?
u know wat, i suddenly feel that he is gettin old. i noticed part of his eyebrows turning grey n white, jus like his hair (but he dye his hair regularly,so not tt bad).... his reactions slower now n he gets tired much easier. left a deep impact on me. though we kknow tt every1 grows old, but when the time comes, usually its not as easy to take it as saying it.
thinking back to the time when i was stil a kid, it seems like yesterday. times flew past without most of us taking note. remembering how strong papa was to catch a snake, to carry tons of stuffs ( including me like i was weightless..haha..), to take care of the whole family....now,it seems like we r worrying abt him more,though he is reali fit for his age n he worries for us too...i feel a little 无奈.....
y do pp hav to grow old? sigh....i knw the answer, but i stil cant help asking this question.

OOOOoooooppppssssSSSS !!!! (NOTE of apology)

2007-11-18T23:07:00.002+08:00

dear yiqi n bernard.....
im so sorrie! haha...guys, if u all read carefully, im sure u guys would have noticed a real big typo error!! n yiqi msged me to tell me abt it! haha.... in the part1 of the marina south gathering, i typed "ying n bernard" which is totally out!
im reali sorrie...im not gg to change it, but leaving it there as something to remind me not to fall aslp again when i post anything on my blog...wahah.... ;p
happy reading....n pls do inform me if u guys spot anymore errors ok!!!
请原谅小女子我的一时疏忽。。。。哈哈！

OOOOoooooppppssssSSSS !!!!

2007-11-18T23:07:00.001+08:00

the "bun"!!!

2007-11-18T00:58:00.000+08:00

well, if u guys remember, this is "THE BUN"!!! haha....the bun tt got me rushing for it without thinking of spoiling my image, n which got bernard rush to get it like a "knight in shining armour" jus to get for our 幸福小女人 yiqi....heehee....in the end, our table got the most of wat was brought out!!haha....tasting the fruits of our "hard" labour, i had the feeling tt the bun was exceptionally nice tt day....

gathering @ marina south ...part 2

2007-11-18T00:53:00.000+08:00

hey pp

i nvr knw we can be so gd at taking these kinda pics...wahaha.... ;p

reali so happie we can go crazy together like nobody's business..

i was thinking, if i were some1 who is there but dunno u guys,i would think u all are crazy bunch...heehee...lucky im one of u...haahaa...we had such a bl**dy good h*ll of a time!

our gathering makan @ marina south....part 1

2007-11-18T00:42:00.000+08:00

haha....a bit late at uploading these pics.but cos past days so difficult to upload.anyway, reali happie even when i tink back abt that day....enjoy the pics ya!
(ps....ying n bernard reali getting more like couple wif the passing of each gathering...every1 agree?)

<< touched >>

2007-11-13T00:12:00.000+08:00

this is for ladies:

wat answers do ur bfs give whenever u ask questions like:
1) do u love me?
2) do u miss me?
3) do u wan to marry me? etc.......

this is one answer tt wil definitely bring great joy n tt will touch most girls....

the guy says: i hav these options in my mind. n my answer is .......
a) yes
b) definitely!
c) how can i not?
d) nothing can stop me.....
e) all of the above

Of cos (e)!

well, this is also something i put up for some1 to learn something...
hope this some1 can reali learn ...heehee.... ;p

fantastic night out wif gang...

2007-11-09T00:07:00.000+08:00

dear ying,qi,ben,feng,qing,

we reali had a crazy n fun night out...not leaving out stupid oh...haha... the uncle reali didnt notice anything!!! we r reali gd actors n actresses....pls don feel guilty...its soemthing bad we do once in a million yrs...wahaha....feel so gd actuali...rite?
laughter n smiles tell me we enjoyed the night thoroughly, didnt we? taking pics is reali becoming our forte le...n i can say patrick is getting better at taking pics le. this is wat i call, "pracitice makes perfect."i will not forget the "bun-snatching" per wher yiqi's man came to grab the bun for yiqi...wah....its so touching somehow....heehee...yiqi sure eyes big big lookin now..haha...but u r blessed, remember, u r given a person named Bernard who is willing to do these kinda things for u oh...n me too...i hav that one lo...
we r stil happie whenever we come out as a grp.the feeling is real gd....this is wat i think of as gd frens...wil upload the pics asap. don worry oh...

love,
peiming, ming-er

ktv day....again?!!!

2007-11-08T00:36:00.000+08:00

yes of cos...again...its gathering day wif ying, yiqi n ziqing, who onli drop by lo...lucky we got 2 gentlemen to keep the 3girls entertained, thanks to my abang n qi's abang....wahahaha.... ;p

anyway, its alwas very noisy n happie to see evry1... so we came up with a plan of going sonewhere together again....can we make it this time?ok,to update every1, location we are aiming at this time is Sunway Lagoon. Malaysia's very famous man made waves n its more of leisure in water,water n more water....quite nice place.been ther when i was quite young. there is hotel there already, so very easy....its set to be on the 7,8,9th dec...which ziqing said its his exam wk so he can go.... but prob for me now is my boss going on her long leave in dec...wil she let me go? hm....lets see, but at the meantime, do consider n get back asap oh....

wat kind of man would u wan for life?

2007-11-05T00:38:00.000+08:00

wat kind of man would u wan for life?

~ one that gives u the securities in life but do not love u tt much?
~ one tt loves u deeply but who cant provide u wif wat u desire?
~ one tt u THINK loves u but keeps his options n eyes open for others?
~ one who might love u for now but u r not sure whether this will continue for long?
~ one who swears by his love for u but keeps repeating mistakes?
~ one whom u love, but u are not sure of his love for u is true?
~ one who seems so near yet so far?

well, its reali hard to decide...even for myself.
y must there b decisions made?
y are there so many complications involve?
y are men n women created so differently?
y m i askin these questions?

i dont know.....im tired.

永远不要放弃你所爱的人！

2007-11-04T00:25:00.000+08:00

在日本发生了一件千真万确的事：

有人为了装修家里，拆开了墙；日式住宅的墙壁通常是中间架了木板后，两边批上泥土，其实里面是空的。他拆墙壁的时候，发现一只壁虎被困在那里一根从外面钉进来的钉子钉住了那只壁虎的尾巴。那人见状，既觉可怜又感好奇，他仔细看看那根钉子，天啊！那根钉子是十年前盖那房子的时候钉的。

到底怎么回事？那只壁虎竟然困在墙壁里活了整整十年！黑暗中的墙壁里的十年，真不简单。不对呀？他继而寻思，尾巴被钉住了，一个步子也跨不出的这只壁虎，到底靠什么撑过了这十年？他于是暂时停止了装修工程。它到底吃什么？他要一探究竟。过了不久，不知从哪里又钻出来一只壁虎，嘴里含着食物...啊！他一时愣住了，这是什么样的情啊？为了被钉住尾巴而不能走动的壁虎，另一只壁虎竟然在十年的岁月里一直不停地衔取食物喂它。

我听了以后，很感动！也不去想它们之间的关系是亲子，朋友，异性，手足.........

在人类的社会中随着计算机的普及，人与人获取相关的信息更快速，但是人与人之间的距离是否也越来越接近呢？...

do u feel blessed?

2007-11-03T12:26:00.000+08:00

little things in life, we have seemed to forget abt their existence or taken them for granted.

these are the things tt maybe we hav forgotten, but i wil pay a tribute to them today...haha..

1. waking up every morning & thanking whoever is up there tt im stil alive n can be sitting up cursing tt i hav to get to work today.... ;p

2. sitting on the toilet bowl n getting all the s**t out after having constipation for more than a week... (i know i sound so gross, but cant help putting this in)

3. running to the catch the train tt has jus whizzed past u but still be happy that there's a next one coming in 8min (better be late than nvr turning up rite?)

4. having a sister/mother who keeps nagging at you everyday when u reach home than returning to a home without any1 there to even look at u

5. having a bf who works hard n hav no time for u but u know he is working hard for the future with u

i reali wanted to continue,but tis bf of mine is rushing me to go hav lunch since im off today but he has got to work in the afternoon......shld i feel blessed? yes...i should.....how abt u?

男人是善忘的

2007-10-31T00:53:00.000+08:00

有一句话说：“女人是善变的”。今天我想加上另一句：“原来男人是善忘的”。。。

忘了他曾经说过“我爱你”这三个字，忘了两人之前的亲密，忘了他所发过的信息里的一字一句。。。简单的两个子否定了一切一切：“有吗？”就两个字，却伤透了她的心。

他决定他们相恋，决定他们分开，也决定他们的“保持好朋友关系”。。。她也没有决定的机会。虽然一开始是她占上风，但她却不知从何时起把他当成是生活的重心。。。

她好好的把自己保护了二十几年，小心的守着自己，不让任何人轻易的走进心里，却不知为什么就为他开启，还开心的以为真的找到了属于她的“那个人”。。。但到头来，可笑啊。。。莫骂我冷血，我只能说：“笨。”对她真心真意的人她看不见，就选了个“善忘”的男人。。。还笨笨的听他说的每一句话，相信他的“慢慢发展”,“不会一直是朋友”。

女人，笨也得有个限度，真正对你有爱的人，会那样伤你吗？想想吧。。。

hotel from outside view at night

2007-10-30T01:10:00.000+08:00

i stayed in krabi la playa resort.....not bad for a resort...quiet...near to the 2beaches...walking distance...but one thing im reali worried abt is the security issue....
bad things aside, wat i like in the room qas the pic of the man n woman....so cute!!!haha..... u understand y i said so? n also the elephant on the bed is so creative! but i figured quite lon gn....stil don know how they fold the towels into the shape of elephant....reali clever!

back from krabi~

2007-10-30T00:58:00.000+08:00

hey every1 ...im back from krabi...a small island part of thailand....hey,it rhymes...(sound so stupid) anyway, its quite a nice place...if u are looking for somewher reali different from singapore n somewher wher u can reali relax n think abt nothing else but relax. quite different from phuket in the sense that the pp there are more simple, not like those in phuket, all out to kill tourists for their money...hehee....jus kidding.but here, they r reali simpler. more smiling faces but of cos they move more slowly too....oops....

i like the weather,not too hot cos its the rainy season now...got quite some rain....too bad for my partner, whose supposed to go there for sun tanning but got none.heehee...partly my fault la...i wan stay fair fair...nonetheless, i alwas think that its not the place u go, but the company that counts...agree?

寬恕來自一種善念

2007-10-21T00:23:00.000+08:00

寬恕來自一種善念

一碗湯
「索倫」剛從國外回來不久，這一天受邀參加一個餐會，而且約定要當三十分鐘席間講演的主講人。他對臺北的街道不熟，到得太早，就在會場附近下車，在那裡慢慢逛街。他經過一家賣餐盒的小店，正想停下來看看，店裡忽然衝出一個留長頭髮、穿牛仔褲的大女孩，往他身上猛撞了一下。大女孩手上提著的塑膠袋，也重重的打在他身上。袋裡那個裝湯的塑膠蓋碗掉了出來，碗蓋鬆了，整碗酸辣湯全灑在他的褲子上，不但燙了他的腿，也毀了那條西服褲。

事情來得太突然，確實使索倫吃了一驚。他還來不及反應，只能站在那裡發愣。但是眼看他那條新做的淺色西裝褲已經變成五花褲，難免覺得有些心疼。大女孩也一下子愣住了。她滿臉通紅，連聲的說對不起對不起，急忙從掛肩袋裡掏出面紙來，要幫索倫擦拭。索倫伸手阻止她說：「沒關係，沒關係。」大女孩說：「那怎麼辦？」索倫說：「我自己想辦法。」大女孩不安的說：「先生，原諒我好嗎？我要去趕一場考試，又沒有吃中飯，所以買了飯盒要帶到考場外去吃。現在只剩下不到二十分鐘的時間，我快遲到了。先生能不能給我一張名片，讓我明天設法補救，現在先放我走好嗎？」索倫說：「既然是要參加考試，你就快走吧！」大女孩伸手說：「你的名片。」索倫說：「算了，算了，你快走吧！」大女孩謝了又謝，提著裡面只剩一個餐盒的塑膠袋，長髮飄飄，飛奔而去。

索倫抖落褲子上那些雜碎，穿著濕漉漉的褲子，叫了一輛計程車，回家換一身衣服，然後再趕回餐會的會場，順利的發表了他的席間演說。一個月以後，索倫要到高雄去開會。他因為事情忙，沒有預購機票，打算到機場再辦理購票手續，沒想到他到了機場，才發現他要搭的那班飛機已經客滿。他很著急，對航空公司櫃檯裡那個穿制服、留長頭髮的票務小姐說：「怎麼辦，我一個半小時以後就要在高雄開會！」票務小姐說：「先生你別著急，我來幫你想辦法。」她打了兩通電話，在第二通電話裡對著話筒說了聲謝謝，然後含笑對索倫說：「斜對面那家航空公司這班飛機還有一個空位，二十分鐘以後起飛，你到那邊去買票吧！你一定趕得上。」

索倫非常感激，認真的向票務小姐道了謝，並且說了句笑話：「如果不是有你幫忙，我就得自己飛過去了。」票務小姐也笑了，站了起來說：「先生，你一定是不記得我了。我就是一個月以前把一碗酸辣湯潑了你一身的那個大女孩子。那一天要不是你寬宏大量的放我走，我一定會誤了那場考試。」索倫驚喜的說：「那麼你考上了沒有？」票務小姐笑著說：「我考的就是這家航空公司的票務人員啊！」

心靈悄悄話--寬恕
原諒別人的過失，就是「寬恕」。「寬恕」不是很容易的，只有心胸開闊的人才做得到。心胸開闊的人，承認人人都會犯過失，連自己也不例外。自己犯了過失，心中難免懊悔，總希望別人能原諒他，使他有改正的機會，從此不再犯錯。自己是這樣想，別人又何嘗不是這樣想。如果你能根據自己渴望得到寬恕的心境，去體會別人渴望得到寬恕的心境，你就能領悟到「寬恕」的意義和價值了。寬恕不但能祛除不小心犯錯的人心中的悔恨和不安，而且也提供了補救的機會。

一個九歲的男孩，有一次不小心在叔叔的書房裡，打碎了一座十幾公分高的白玉觀音雕像。他非常害怕，非常懊悔，因為他知道那座白玉觀音是叔叔最心愛的。他流下眼淚，顫聲對叔叔說對不起。叔叔卻對他說：「沒關係，沒關係，不過是座雕像罷了，將來還可以找到更好的。不要難過，不要難過。」小男孩非常感激叔叔對他的寬恕，心裡感到平安，仍然可以快快樂樂的過日子。不過從此以後，他也養成一種習慣，常常到古董店和玉器店去欣賞觀音的雕像。到了他三十九歲那一年，他送給他六十歲的叔叔一座很美的觀世音雕像，作為祝壽的禮物。

寬恕來自一種善念。這善念成就了一個美善的世界。

放弃？

2007-10-13T23:10:00.000+08:00

为朋友写的最后一段：

虽然知道放弃是很不勇敢、懦弱的做法，可是我还是选择了这个出路。。。明知道坚持下去还是会有希望，我却告诉自己，应该是时候放手了。放手可能会是个更好的决定，让自己不沉浸在欺骗自己的世界里，说些谎话给自己不该有的希望。
放手应该让他过得较轻松、自在点，不是吗？虽然真的好舍不得，却还是得这样做。很想听见他说不，可我明白这是不可能的。比我会嫁给猴子的几率还少。。。哈哈。觉得这个例子说得怎样？我还能开玩笑就代表我还是珍惜与爱自己的。。。
就像这一段字写到：

If you love it, let it go 要是你爱它，就让它走
If it comes back to you, its yours 要是它回到你身边，它就是属于你的

If it doesn't, it was never meant to be 要不，它一开始就不应属于你

我迷惘了。。。（2）

2007-10-13T00:44:00.000+08:00

该如何把自己身上的痛苦减轻？我不会也不想。。。可能已患上“自虐症”想让自己沉浸在痛苦中，企图在痛苦中寻找出路。要是真的找不到任何适合我的路，也希望上天会对我怀有那一丝丝的眷恋，给我一线曙光，让我迎着光走出这个寂寞又黑暗的深渊。
苦中作乐是自己的强项，自我安慰。。。或者自我催眠。不然，要是再不行就得使绝招了。逃避虽然无法解决问题，可至少无需去正视和面对那残忍的局面。我是爱自己的，决不会让自己伤得那么严重。
但是，这次。。。我却怎么也提不起劲来面对挑战。。。
来人救救我啊！

我迷惘了。。。

2007-10-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

为一个非常要好的朋友写的一段话：

虽然这是最理智，对我来说也是最好的决定，我还是感到莫名的失落、伤感。。。这种感觉就像是失去了一样离心最近的东西，可我却说不上来那是什么。要是真的丢了东西还可以找或补回来，可是我失去的是无期限的从我的身上被夺走，不知什么时候会归还给我。或者应该说我不知道还会不会再属于我。

人都是自私的，我也不例外。希望你的目光一直是锁定在我的身上，不让任何人抢去你的注视，你知道吗？你的温柔与关切只能属于我，连一丁点都不能分给别人。。。这就是我喜欢你的那一点私心。可是现在，特权没了，抑是其实一开始我就根本没拥有过。。。

我们绝对不是一见钟情，真的，相信我。也不知道为什么会喜欢上你，就找不到任何的理由。你不特别的帅、幽默、可爱，可就是每样都有一点。我呢？对你来说我又是什么吸引你呢？现在才问会不会有点迟？

希望你对我的心千万不要累，因为我的没有累，我只是小心翼翼的把心藏在心底的最深处，好好的保存，等你准备好后才把心完完整整地交到你手中，你明白吗？你感觉到吗？你还在意吗？你还想要这颗为你悸动的心吗？

就像你说的：“我迷惘了。。。”

恋爱症候群 - 黄舒骏

2007-10-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

今天想要和大家分享这首我很喜欢的歌。。。很有趣的歌。让我从中学开始听到现在都觉得好听。慢慢看歌词就知道为什么了。很可爱的。。。

关于恋爱症候群的发生原因
至今仍然是最大的一个谜
不管性别年龄职业体重学历长相和血型
没有一个人可以免疫
有些专家学者研究后相信
恋爱是内分泌失调所引起
却有别人认为恋爱属于滤过性病毒象感冒无药可救但会自动痊愈
不管你同不同意
自古到今许多例子证明
恋爱不但是一种病态
它还可能是一种变态
一般发病后的初期反应
会开始是改变一些生活习性
洗澡洗得特别干净
刷牙刷得特别用力
半夜突然爬起来弹钢琴
有人每天站在阳台对路人傻笑
有人突然疯疯癫癫突然很安静
有人一脸痴呆对折镜子咬着指甲打喷嚏
有人对小狗骂三字经
女人突然改变发型
男人开始每天练着哑铃
食欲不振歇斯底里四肢萎缩神经过敏发抖抽筋都出现在这时期
随着病情越来越变本加厉人会变得格外敏感和恶心
写的说的唱的都想天才诗人一般才华洋溢越
肉麻越饿觉得有趣
有人恋爱之后每天躲在厕所哭泣
有人开记者会宣布恋爱的消息
有人总是喜欢两个人躲在黑漆漆的地方象做了不可告人的事情
每天忙着找人算命
挖空心思改变自己配合对方的习性
把每天都当作纪念日
把自己当作纪念品
每天漫无目的腻在一起言
不及义也觉得好有趣
走着坐着躺着趴着都形影不离
象是两人三脚又象连体婴
心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你
也不管家里米缸有没有米
也不管路上有人示威抗议
只管爱你
心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你
也不管海峡两岸统一问题
也不管衣索匹亚多少难民
只管爱你
经过一段轰轰烈烈热恋时期不久就会渐渐开始痊愈
两人开始互相厌倦互相攻击对方缺点
所有甜蜜都随风而去
然后开始从错觉和误解中清醒
惊讶自己为何如此不聪明
为了爱情不管一切不顾父母朋友姐妹兄弟开始感到后悔不已
然后开始感到疲惫
沉闷气喘心悸牙痛头痛梦呓
然后是精神不济瞳孔放大脾气暴躁四肢麻痹终于受不了要分离
虽然结果颇令人伤心
了解之后也没什么了不起
爱情终究是握不住的云
只是我想要告诉
你在我落寞的岁月里
你的温柔解脱我的孤寂
带给我深深的狂喜如此颤动我的心灵
轻轻诉说爱你爱你爱你爱你
不管是黑夜或是黎明
不管是梦中还是清醒深深爱你
多么幸福
让我遇见你呜……我要对你诉说爱你爱你爱你爱你

我特别喜欢这首歌就在于它能够很有理智地去分析出人在恋爱时常常会做的事。。。它诉说着每个人都经历过的，毫无遮掩。我真的很佩服这个作词人。。。

great times i had with my 2nd batch boys & girls Part 1 (marina south)

2007-10-11T00:50:00.000+08:00

reali had great times with my boys n girls frm 2nd batch....we went out many times together.better than the 1st batch.i had in the 1st place tot i wil onli b close with the1st batch cos there r many girls in the 2nd batch which are tot to be the ones who wil create problems in grps, but i hav to think otherwise now. they blend in wonderfully with each other. i hav the jokers, clowns, the serious ones, the timid ones, the slow ones n the smart ones, but i love everyone of them....

自负的我

2007-10-10T00:50:00.000+08:00

渐渐地发现很多事都不在自己所能控制的范围之内，慢慢地发现自己原来是那么的自负。
人与人之间的关系，事情的发生很多时候都在预料之外，想尽力去阻止或改变又察觉到能力上的不足。
对于现在的我来说，骄傲于自负似乎没什么分别，因为这两项都会让人裹足不前，让人停止他所有的进步。而我该做的就是自我反省，再好好地冲刺吧！

funny gers....

2007-09-23T19:03:00.000+08:00

guess wat, i went to watch a movie at cineleisure yesterday.its saturday,so pp from all over swarm to the place.lifts are so bloody hard to wait, n even if u do get into 1,it might be ur 2nd or 3rd wait.when i can finally get into 1 which many pp were walking out from, one group of girls, all are westerners,barged in from the other side of the lift b4 all the pp inside could get out. to me, as long as i can get intoi the lift,it doesnt matter who gets in first.so i jus looked on. ( im peace advocator) when the lift was filled up, the grp of gers started to talk at such loud voices tt reali irritates many pp in the lift.well, i know tt in many ways,westerners are more open n they are more carefree abt life than us,i tink tt they talking loudly n singing out the songs they r listening on is reali way out of line. one grp of local kids couldnt stand it n looked up, not at them, n said, ' can u jus keep quiet?? its so noisy' den it went silent for a few seconds but they jus continue like nothing happened. when it reached level 4, this local kids jus said things like 'bitch!''uneducated(IN MANDARIN) ' and scolded a hokkien vulgar language b4 walking out. the western gers jus said'wooooo" n carrie don their act in the lift till the highest flr.
y do pp hav to behav like tt? both grps are so.......haha...i wont say it out, u pp knw wat i mean....jus wanna share with u pp this incident tt i saw...

jus some thoughts abt PRC

2007-09-23T18:54:00.000+08:00

training new PRC (china) staffs is my new job responsibility now....and sometimes it reali gets me thinking hard...y?
some of them are reali clever, quick witted pp. they r more creative than many of us.n i mean us as in including me, their trainer.well, not saying they in turn train me, but they can inspire me alot.thru the methods they use to solve a problem, and the way they see things from their point of view.maybe they are born in a country full of competition, that makes them more competitive.
i alwas think of this, they are pp born at the right time, but in the wrong place....or not so reali wrong place, but in the wrong environment that makes them lose out to us in many ways like firstly, language. and also in technology sometimes.
i can onli feel very blessed tt im born in a place where i can get to learn and do wat i wan easily.thanks to whoever is up there. :P

ma maison @ central mall

2007-09-15T23:55:00.000+08:00

this is the pic of the spaghetti i had there. though its black , but delicious.didnt get to take pics of the other dishes we ordered.... ;P sorrie.....but all dishes are good. we also had the hamburger...hm...taste great too...clam chowder is nice, n there is wine too....too bad i didnt get a chance to try...heehee...i wil, next time.

ma maison @ Bugis & Central Mall (Clarke quay)

2007-09-15T23:46:00.000+08:00

went to this restaurant called ma maison last wk.reali nice place.great atmosphere.real gd food.real delightful svc.this is a top recommendation from me since like....many many centuries ago.wahaha...no la...but i can guarantee this place is one that wil make e wanna go back time n again.

ma maison is a japanese cum western food restaurant, (if i didnt interpret it wrongly)...a mixture of west n japan.

wat makes me love this place is the atmosphere.seems like i ve travelled back in time. best thing in this experience is we are given a big key, which looked so antique n it has our table no. 0n it, for us to make our payment at the reception area.its so different from the norm.

hope this recommendation wil spur u to try this place.reali good.need more info on this place can alwas call me...i can giv u more details. hehee...i don get advertising fees ok!!

1 thing tt a woman wil do when she's too bored...

2007-09-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

okok, i admit, some pp don reali like taking pics when they r bored but i do ok! haha....was so so bored the other day after work when i reached home n after i retrieved some pics from my camera, i started snaping pics of myself like a psycho...chuckle! mayb its a new way to release my stress too...found some nice ones though mostly destroyed by the tons of fat i see on the camera screen, u know wat i mean....heehee....

maybe im getting too bored these days...this job is tying me down,i miss gg out n having drinks til late night,relaxing....miss having late night chats n many many else...sigh.....do u guys tink i shld find something more interesting n something tt suits my character more?

ktv for 2 lonely women...

2007-09-10T23:06:00.000+08:00

are u lonesome tonight? haha....tot of these words while uploading the pics ying sent to me...heehee....can u imagine the 2 of us (ONLI!) went singing..n i find it so enjoyable! at 1st tot tt onli 2 of us wil be quite boring,but instead,we get to reali sing to our hearts' content, sing the songs tt we seldom sing, n not afraid if we don hit the right notes...sorry guys, if u tink tt we din enjoy, u re wrong!haha....n we took pics using ying's new camera...gd ya?

9 words that women always use

2007-09-02T00:00:00.000+08:00

9 words that women always used:

1. Fine - This is the word women use to end anargument when they are right and youneed to shut up.

2. Five Minutes - If she is getting dressed, this means ahalf an hour. Five minutes is only fiveminutes if you have just been givenfivemore minutes to watch the game beforehelping around the house.

3. Nothing - This is the calm before the storm. Thismeans something, and you should be onyour toes. Arguments that begin withnothing usually end in fine.

4. Go Ahead - This is a dare, not permission. Don'tDo It!

5. Loud Sigh - This is actually a word, but is anon-verbal statement oftenmisunderstoodby men. A loud sigh means she thinksyouare an idiot and wonders why she iswasting her time standing here andarguing with you about nothing. (Referback to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6. That's Okay - This is one of the most dangerousstatements a woman can make to a man.That's okay means she wants to thinklong and hard before deciding how andwhen you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks - A woman is thanking you, do notquestion, or Faint. Just say you'rewelcome.

8. Whatever - Is a women's way of saying F@*K YOU!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it - Another dangerous statement, meaningthis is something that a woman has tolda man to do several times, but is nowdoing it herself. This will later result in a man asking "What's wrong?" For thewoman's response refer to #3.

*Send this to the men you know, to warnthem about arguments they can avoid ifthey remember the terminology.

*Send this to all the women you know togive them a good laugh, cause they knowit's true

sentosa trip...I

2007-08-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

went sentosa for 2days...strictly saying onli 1 day in full...cos reached quite late n went off quite early. very quiet cos week day...bt stil enjoyed myself. bought shades for the trip cos realised i lost my last pair fro the previous phuket trip...sigh.....sad. lucky found something nice....do i look nice in the new shades? hm....

原来。。。

2007-08-19T22:34:00.000+08:00

以为从此就能快快乐乐的过每一天，直到老、直到死。可是她天真地忘了爱情也需要经营的。因为，他也不见得会接受她的一切。。。她的娇纵、任性、撒娇。她脆弱、敏感的心灵，导致她的“阴晴不定”。。。他没有接受，也应该没想过要接受。

她的快乐就快要结束了吗？甚至他们都不知道，可是此时此刻她的心是受伤的、疲惫的。。。原来，快乐并不会陪伴每个人很久，该走的时候，会让人措手不及。。。唉。。。。

happie bday singapore

2007-08-18T23:12:00.001+08:00

happie bday to spore.....but i took some real lousy pics from afar.sigh.....bad aiming.bad location.ya,ya...blame everything.but the most impt is, BAD PHOTOGRAPHER! n pls don think its some1 else.its ME.jus the lousy me...........stil wanna show u guys wat i took.so tt u pp can laugh at me...

tribute to dear Ria ;p

2007-08-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

haha....this fren was telling me abt she n her bf's family...this is the conversation ---

im close wif his family.
close to his parents,
his brother,
his other relatives.....

then she paused for a while,looking thoughtful, as if she is gg to say some others in the bf's family whom she left out ( as wat i wouldve expected la)....then,she said this out of the blue....

his dog is close to me too!

i was stunned for a few seconds n when i could react,i laughed out...real reali very funnie fren.she definitely has a very cute way of linking everything together. a tribute to my dear Ria...

story that wil move u to tears...

2007-08-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

A is a girl who loves her boyfren alot...one day, while they were spending some time at home watching tv,A, without any warning,jus turned over to her boyfren n gave him a kiss on the lips...(not the lip-locking type la.don think too far!) she then gazed at her boyfren lovingly..waiting for somethin romantic in return...her boyfren,looked at her after a few seconds n said this,
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."giving me CPR?"..............................................( crow hit the wall [乌鸦撞墙]...gua gua gua ;p)

morale of the story: sigh....kissing a stoodood man is nvr good for ur health.especially pp who are so so UN-ROMANTIC!!!

see? i told u this story wil move u to tears...but not the "touched" or "moved" type of tears.but the laugh til u roll type...wahaha....

my aunty uniform...heehee..don laugh.

2007-08-06T00:32:00.000+08:00

these pics are taken during the celebrations of some colleagues' bday....wahaha..den we take the opportunity to take pics lo...LOL...but i do look aunty in the uniform.i totally agree. i knw gold makes pp look bigger.but i cant choose the uniform. so sad.heehee....but do giv me some feedback of the uniform ok?thanks....

ccs nite part 2

2007-08-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

ying chasing me the pics le...as said,ive burnt into cd....ok,some nice pics to "quench" ur thirst oh....but without my face...hehe.. :)

5 out of 6 had dnr together....

2007-08-04T23:44:00.000+08:00

on 14 july...which is last mth...so sorrie i didnt put the pics up sooner.but anyway,ive burnt into cd to giv to u guys....haha...reali happie that at least the 5 of us,except for qing could turn up.reali unexpected cos some said they might not b able to make it n ying n me wont expecting the full strength..hehe...but guess we had an enjoyable time.

very happie tt yiqi is now v.bz....haha...we knw wat she is bz wif,but seriously,pls do not lose faith ok?u knw wat im talkin abt.reali hope to see u hapie.this is not onli my wish but frm us 5others. if u stil find it frustrating or headache,pls giv any of us a call..we wil b here.

ying...pls don do any stooodooood things in future again.u knw wat i tallking abt too...pls refrain urself! discipline.wahahahaha...

okok..i sound old.how u guys find the pics?

wat's yours?

2007-07-31T01:07:00.000+08:00

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

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Take the Test to Find Out.

bought a tie...

2007-07-30T00:47:00.001+08:00

very funnie....recently jus bought a tie for some1...(u guys sure knw who la)...that mr some1 lo...think he must like it very much too.feel very appreciated. i did somethin very stupid.n that is to take pic of me n the tie n mms to ask him.."which is better?the beauty r the tie?"haha..wat a question! if he say the tie,means im ugly.if he says the beauty,means the tie is not nice.but well, he gave a very gd answer though...n thats the beauty la..whic woman would rather hav gd taster than b a beauty? let's b more realistic. politically correct answer though it might not b true..wahahah...

sound decision making? wahahaha ;p

2007-07-25T19:39:00.000+08:00

had a chat with a fren....wat is betraying?wat is two-timing? who is right n who is in the wrong? sometimes, i guess there is no line that can divide wat is right from wrong.wat is right in my eyes may b wrong in yours n wat i think cannot b done may seem fine with another. but in love,there shouldnt,or shld i say, there IS no right n wrong.
below is wat i wanna tell the fren: - -
from like to love is a very simple, n 'swift' process, but when u choose to forget some1,it may take 10 or even 100times more effort than to love. if you think u hav done something wrong, think again...mayb u r doing the right thing,but u r choosing to stand in the shoes of outsiders n judging yourself. but as the owner of your own life, who shld u consider for in the 1st place?
the process of choosing the 'right' one for u is a hard one.it may take days or years... i can onli pray that u don take too long, becos u wil hav more n more factors to consider b4 u can settle for a decision. which is definitely not helpin u make wise choices. however, do not onli look at wat is happening now, but take into consideration wat's in the past, the present, n of cos, wat may happen in the future.
also, when a person don say anything, it doesnt mean that he is not thinking. guys tend to think of things n keep to themselves til the last minute den they reveal wat's on their minds.if u reali wanna knw more, mayb u can voice out ur concerns n get him to stand telling u of his plans. n the person who keeps saying may not b the one who is going to execute the plans in the future. remember, one who says may not be the one who does. by saying, u onli need the mouth.....by doing, u need everything.
do consider carefully,n not to speed up the process of deciding cos it wil onli slow things down.don ask too many pp for suggestions too. jus tell yourself u hav to be responsible for the decision u make.thats all. n choose wat u love,not wat others love.
i hope everything can go well for me like wats happening for me now..heehee....can alwas come to me if u need me again oh.....
love.........

ccs nite 210707

2007-07-22T19:59:00.000+08:00

yesterday,we had the ccs nite which we called ye zhi lan yuan........very happie to be back in yjc to help the current ccs batch of students whom we can see are working hard to make the nite possible.yes,we can say they are not as professional as wat we hav been trained to perform, but we must not forget the effort that they hav put in. they are stil young n they do not have any1 to guide them along........sigh............but happie thing is,we can get along quite well with the current batch.not too bad for a start.cos we might meet again n work together if there is reali a reunion for all in 2009.will we be having?i don know.though i reali hope there wil be. already asked mr seet for holiday off to do the production le.dunno whether he wil approve of the leave or not....heeheee..wat do u say,mr seet?wahaha....u better agree,if not ying is coming after u cos she is very interested in playin 1of the characters in my script leh.am i right,ying? ;p
anyway,im reali writing the outline of the script already.hope we can reali put it up n show others wat we reali have got up our sleeves.at the same time,i need pp interested in playing the characters....hm...are u?haha....
p.s. wil upload the pics later......

phuket trip part 4: the proud n noisy rooster

2007-06-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

this is real funny....i saw this rooster in the elephant farm....it is very very proud,standing tall n with its head high up pointing towards the sky...at the same time,it is tryong so much to catch attention of pp there tt even in the hot sun at noon time,it can stil make noise.going around everywher n seeking for pp who were takin pics n those who were pointing exciting at it.

1 thing i can compliment this rooster abt is tt it reali got the guts to stand around elephants which can jus crush it with 1 wrong step...wahaha......

phuket trip part 3: temples

2007-06-22T00:45:00.000+08:00

1st day city tour 1st destination is the largest temple in phuket. very nice cos made up of many temples.all very nice cos all done very delicately. pics on the walls tell many stories abt how the buddha attain nirvana....very interesting too. statues of the buddhas are also placed in the temples...some are gold-plated too...many thais go there to pray during special days n weekends.some reali sit there n pray, n others reali go down all the way flat on the ground to pray!

phuket trip part 2: beautiful clouds

2007-06-20T00:17:00.000+08:00

i hav always liked clouds...seeing them makes me relax so much...they remind me of the candy floss...i love candy floss...but cant eat 2much cos wil grow fat.heehee....these pics i took of the clouds reali are the best pics of clouds i hav ever taken...how i wish i can walk on them, or even sleep on them...they wil make real good beds!

phuket trip part 1: sunrise...

2007-06-19T23:33:00.000+08:00

the weather was good on the day i depart spore for phuket...my flight was early, abt 7am in the morning.i appreciated it much even though i had to arrive at the airport early around 530am as i can see the sunrise..took some pics of the sky....though not very very nice, but i tried my best...heehee .... ;p

你说话伤人吗？

2007-06-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

我想念小时候无忧无虑的生活，不用为身边的人、事、物想得太多。。。只知道开心就好。可是长大之后，不只得想自己，还得去照顾到每个人的想法，很容易被旁人的话伤着。而常常伤自己的人可能就是身边最亲的人，最要好得朋友或是最亲密的恋人。

你，说话时会伤着别人吗？

要是我是这样的一个人，我宁愿自己是个哑巴。。。哈哈。。。

my masterpieces r moving....

2007-06-11T23:52:00.000+08:00

dear all,im starting to move all my designs, my master pieces n new creations to another blog www.dar-by.blogspot.com so pls,when free, drop by to take a look n comment on them oh....n if u happen to knw any1 crazy over these kind of accessories, help me advertise too oh...thanks....

yj alumni day...singing competition..more like family reunion for ccs members ;p

2007-06-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

as stated in the title,i tot tt the alumni day was more like a reunion day for all the ccs members..heehee...most of the pp who take part r from ccs...we were all so on!ying was the mc for the day,ben came to help,yiqi was the audience,finali,me the being sabotaged one,last min called up to take part in the singing competition.all thanks to ying lo...but this is wat frens are for...to be sabotaged..wahaha... ;p

luckily heaven bless i nvr embarrass any1 n myself, i got 1st, but im sure the others sing well too...i jus got a little luckier. jiayou to all!

i guess i enjoyed myself most when it comes to the photo taking part...hehe...which was after everything n not part of the events..hahah...i got to take all these pics with every1.wonderful time.i stil remember all their names ok!

conquering eski bar...n revealin my "the one"

2007-06-01T23:34:00.000+08:00

we had a wonderful nite out....reali...i had fun.i guess every1 had.the 6 of us.crazy...but fun.we said so much things we might nvr hav said when we are sober.mayb i was the "high-est" one of all 6,but i don care.most impt.,we laugh,we talk,we enjoy,as the 6 musketeers?heehee....we played a game,maybe stupid in some way...qing is gg to kill me for saying this,but i guess it made me realised some of us understands each other so much!much more than we ourselves know it. 7yrs of frenship,guys! can u imagine?n we stayed together for so bloody long,not tired of each other alright!im so happie we r stil close.thanks to whoever is up there above us all. u r all my bestest frens,dear frens...

.maybe chengzhen might b reading again...haha...thanks for taking the time off to read or blogs leh,fren...heehee! enjoy the pics!

the 3 ladies...heehee

2007-05-27T22:52:00.001+08:00

dear all...it has been like yrs since the last time i walked into those shops tt hav got the neoprint machines...hehe...but i guess the 3 of us mustered enough courage to walk in after dinner at cineleisure.wahaha... ;p so happie tt we finali took pics together.ive even downloaded these pics into my phone,using as wallpaper.sounds like wat a teen girl would say,but who cares? i love my frens...enjoy the pics!

abt me...

2007-05-21T00:22:00.000+08:00

i realised something abt myself recently.there may b many things happening in a day to me tt im not happy abt but at the end of the day when some1 ask me abt them,i tend to not want to recall the matters n brush those unhappy incidents aside n not to think abt them till the time i got to resolve them or when im in the mood to tell some1 abt them but by then i would've not been so "agressively" feeling sad or angry.haha...very funny,but this is wat i found out abt myself, n which some1 noticed.hm....is it gd?or is it bad?i dunno....

ur comment: to my dearest ying2

2007-05-21T00:18:00.000+08:00

ying,somehow, when i read ur comment,i hav a feeling tt other than being miserble,u r getting frustrated.im not sure whether im rite,but u reali sound frustrated.not at him totally, but at the situation now,m i rite?i dont know whether u r gg thru the same thing, but im sure wat ever happens, the ending depends very much on how u r gg to allow it to end.i wont say i understand hw u feel cos im not u in this situation.but i say i can see how much u r suffering.n tt pains us who reali care abt u.however, does the "us" im talking abt here include him?if he can let u feel tt he is happy, wat do u think?does he care? but again,he 'seems' happy,is he reali happy?we dont know.we can onli guess.but im sure at least he is not feelin the stress u hav put on him b4.maybe he is jus enjoying the freedom tt he is getting n giving himself a holiday,n he wil stil knw who he wans in the end n come back,or he is reali enjoyin life without u n its time u guys move on.....wat is the real story?

difference between a guy n a gal....i wont say tt this is alwas the case tt gals cling onto the guys.cos it is reali up to u how u wan things to turn out in the end.as ive told u.if he is reali impt to u n u knw u cant do without him, den u cling on till he is willing to come back.but this is how u wil stand "short" in the relationship if u guys get back together.u might have to throw away all ur dignity n change watever he wants u to change to suit him.but if he comes back n love u more,which i hope can come true too, den im sure u guys will reali make a great pair.u're now not clinging to him knowing tt he doesnt belong to u, but u're holding on to the times u guys have spent together n not willing to let them become part of ur memories but u wan them to continue.u r not like your so-called girl who cling on.don degrade urself.

wat ever happens, ying, pls remember tt u hav the rite n the power to change wat is happening to u. u can continue to suffer in silence or to change wat is happening.if the pain is gg to continue hurting longer,pls look out around u.......if u think its worth, den go on. decisions u make i wil alwas support.

有一種愛叫殘酷

2007-05-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

this is another story tt my brother sent to me which i think is very touching...do take sometime off to read this. it inspired me in someway....enjoy!

有一種愛叫殘酷

男人對女人一直很好，呵護有加，只要他在家就不讓她做一點家務。買菜，做飯，洗衣，拖地，洗碗等等，他都會做得又快又好，女人喜歡什麼東西，不用撒嬌耍賴，他總會當成禮物買回來。用他自己的話說，女人是用來疼愛的。女人柔美嫵媚，她的幸福全寫在臉上，甜美的，充滿陽光般的燦爛。她一直以為，日子就可以這樣，執子之手，與子偕老，天長地久，永生永世。她將一直做他懷裏的羔羊，他將一直是她一生的依靠。

天有不測風雲。一天，她在電腦前加了一夜的班，早晨站起來時，忽然天旋地轉，一瞬間的黑暗將她徹底擊倒。當她醒來時，已經在醫院的病床上，男人正紅著眼圈守在她身旁，她的眼淚當時就下來了，伸手摸他的臉，猛然，她的心僵住了，這一刻的冰冷竟然比暈倒時的黑暗更讓她心驚———她的右臂竟然根本無法動彈！她吸入的一口氣就那樣悶在了喉嚨裏，她瞪著疑惑而驚恐的眼又試一下自己的右腿，同樣的麻木，毫無知覺。她的右半身，已經不屬於她了。腦溢血，常年的伏案與過度勞累讓她付出了代價，一直以為這是老年病，總要七老八十才有可能會得，而她才剛剛三十九歲啊！她徹底失態了，歇斯底里，哭得天昏地暗，以後可怎麼辦呢？從此成了一個廢人了，不能工作，不能持家，不能再帶心愛的女兒去公園，不能再挽著他的胳膊散步，終生都要躺在床上了，要躺多久？十年？二十年？她無法想像，她無法忍受，她所有的幸福就這麼灰飛煙滅了。
男人不停地鼓勵她，醫院也開始給她做康復治療。四十天過去了，兩個月過去了，終於有些好轉，她的手和腳有了些知覺，可以做些簡單的活動，但是好轉卻始終停留在這裡，任他怎麼努力給她做按摩也沒有起色。她無法自己穿衣服，扣扣子，吃飯時拿不住筷子，飯菜掉得滿身滿床。她無法自己去洗手間，沒有人攙扶著，她什麼也做不了。她再次陷入崩潰，自己不可能回到健康的狀態了，這，已經是恢復的極限。就在這時，她明顯感到了男人的變化。以前不等她口渴，男人便會拿了吸管遞到她嘴邊，她想吃什麼，只要眼光看到床頭櫃，男人便會問：是蘋果？我幫你削皮。她到洗手間，他會像抱當年那個小女生一樣抱著過去。

而現在，男人陪護她的時候，更多時間是在看自己的專業書，或者到走廊和其他病人家屬聊天，間或看她一眼而已。尤其是這次更加過分，已經晚上七點了，他還沒有像平時那樣送飯過來。她已經很餓了，肚子咕咕叫了半天，床頭櫃上有同事看她時送的糕點，她想自己伸過手去，可努力了半天，手還是僵在半空。她忽然想到一個重大問題：男人，還會留在她身邊嗎？四個月了，哪個男人熬過如此的一百二十天？自己這半殘的身體還有哪點值得他留戀？四十二歲的男人，正是如日中天的時候，誰會把大好時光浪費在一個纏綿病榻的女人身上？男人來了，帶了一大盒剛出鍋的排骨湯，她猛一揮手，那鮮嫩的排骨便落了一地，湯汁灑了男人一身。男人沒有像平時那樣安慰她，反而皺眉說了一句："你愛吃不吃！"她被噎住，差點喘不過氣來。過了一會，她想去洗手間，賭氣不叫他，左手撐著床向旁邊蹭，然後再用左手扳起自己的右腿放到地下，鼓足了勁兒試著要站起來，卻終於沒成功。男人斜著眼睛裝作沒看見，仍舊忙著用手機發短信。女人的血在那一刻涌向頭頂，她，不再是他眼中的珍寶！她狠狠用手撐住床頭櫃，搖搖晃晃站起來，男人這時才趕過來扶住她，遞上手杖。她甩手搡開他，把手杖緊緊握在手裏，現在，這個沒有知覺的木頭，才是她的真正依靠。在洗手間裏，她看到自己蓬頭垢面，哪還有當初的美麗與嬌媚？

男人越來越過分了，扶她在走廊裏散步的時候，總是粗聲大氣地吼她：你倒是自己拿著外衣啊！就不能再走快一步？自己走，老扯著我幹什麼？你不是要上廁所嗎？再不走快點尿了褲子我可不給你洗……當著走廊裏那麼多人，女人低下頭一聲不吭，機械地挪動自己的腳，從小到大，她何時被別人如此呵斥過？自從嫁與他，哪一天他不是輕言慢語百般呵護嬌寵？什麼一日夫妻百日恩，什麼柔情蜜意山盟海誓，什麼永生永世不離不棄，全是鬼話！

男人越來越明顯的漠不關心，讓女人徹底失去了依賴。雖然她看起來柔弱，骨子裏卻是堅韌的，所有的冷落與白眼，都成了她努力鍛鍊的動力，你不是不按時給我送飯嗎？我自己吃上回剩下的。你不是不給我換衣服嗎？我自己花一個小時解開衣釦，再花一個小時脫下。你不是不扶我散步嗎？有這根拐杖就行！不知流了多少汗，咽了多少淚，康復竟然又重新開始了，這次的康復不再是被動的，而是主動的，女人被傷害的自尊成了一座噴發的火山，她自己都感覺到自己的進步，手越來越靈活了，腿也漸漸有力了，她的眼裏又跳動著希望的火花。日子如流水般過去，她對男人一次一次的遲到與漠視變得無謂，積聚起所有的潛能與毅力，來康復自己，等待著出院，也等待著男人對她說出那兩個字：離婚。

連醫生都很難相信她竟然可以恢復得這麼好，除了右腿還有些僵硬，其他地方幾乎都和正常人一樣了。醫生笑著說她創造了一個奇跡，女人也含著淚笑，卻笑得有些蒼涼。男人來接她出院了，兩個人在路上都很沉默。她仍舊固執地不讓男人攙扶，眼看快到家了，她的心快跳出了胸膛，以後，這裡，還是她的家嗎？

男人開門的時候，她定定地看著男人微低的頭，他的腦後竟然有隱約的白髮了。是否，男人就將和她攤牌？她閉上眼，深吸一口氣，忍住即將崩落的眼淚。丫頭，睜開眼看看。是男人溫存的聲音。女人疑惑地睜開眼，呼吸再一次被悶在喉嚨———家裏堆滿了玫瑰花瓣！餐廳，桌上已經擺好了飯菜，全是她最愛吃的。她苦笑：怎麼？最後一次浪漫晚餐？男人定定地看著她，忽然淚流滿面：丫頭，我的傻丫頭，你知不知道我等你站起來等得好辛苦？你知不知道看你受苦我有多難過？你知不知道我硬著心腸吼你罵你時有多痛苦？可如果不這樣，你就會一直依賴我，永遠也沒辦法再站起來了。第二年開春的時候，女人已經可以重新工作了。看上去，她比大病之前略顯老了一些，但臉上的燦爛卻沒變。因為，這個男人讓她明白：不要懷疑真愛，有時候，有一種愛叫殘酷。

trip...

2007-05-16T01:37:00.000+08:00

jus gone on a trip recently to phuket....very fun.guess its more of the company tt makes everything more fun than onli the place itself. but nonetheless, phuket is a beautiful place where we can go for relaxation after hard work...heehee...today too tired.wil update about the trip n the many pics tt ive taken there.hope it helps u guys if u all consider gg there next time...hehe
cheers!